Esoteric: Intended for or likely to be understood by only a small number of people with a specialized knowledge or interest.
I was at a loss. I just wasn’t making the breakthrough I was hoping for from therapy, meds, books, journaling, not even the Bible. And though it seemed as though God wasn’t answering my prayers for healing, He was working on my healing in the way I needed – and working to lead me there too. His patience, love, and kindness never run thin.
I’m telling you if you believe in ghosts and spirits, life after death, or something beyond this world, you must believe in help from the Holiest of Spirit, the Godliest of Ghost. He leads you into all truth!
As God has done numerous times before, he led me to answers for my healing through a dream. The question was on my heart day and night. “What am I missing? What do I need to heal?”
The dream: The light was dim. The tunnels in the underground caverns curved round and round, from one empty cavern to another. I was searching for the answer to my healing. Moving slowly, I followed a faint voice in the distance. Finally, I entered the last cavern where I found a woman sitting at a table. She motioned me over to sit. One by one, she laid out tarot cards, describing to me what each one meant. The dream was lucid and I could hear the thoughts of my soul as it processed what was happening. I questioned why I was listening to a tarot reader, I had turned from that kind of tool, several years back. It scared me to listen to her. I even asked God, “Should I be here?”. As soon as I asked the question, the woman spoke the most important part of her message. She said, “The healing needs to be something physical that happens in your brain, that is the solution.” She pointed to something on the card but I couldn’t bring it into focus. Then I awoke.
I knew immediately it was a dream from God. A friend of mine disagreed. She said that God would never use something like Tarot as a way to get me a message. But I know He did use the dream and the Tarot woman. The Bible is false if God doesn’t use ALL things for good! God could and would use an ‘ungodly’ thing to speak to me. And besides that, the Tarot was a symbol of something hidden. Something that isn’t mainstream. Something that requires specialized knowledge. The dream and the treatment are esoteric in nature, and it caused me to go digging for an alternative treatment for my PTSD, my anxiety, and depression – which is exactly what I did first thing after waking from my dream.
Not knowing what I was looking for, I scoured the internet for alternative treatments. My attention was on my computer when the Today Show announced, “The FDA approved Ketamine as a treatment of PTSD.” As quickly as it aired, it was gone but it was enough to capture my full attention. As soon as I heard it, I knew it was the answer God was leading me to, and the rest is history! Where medicines and counseling and all the things didn’t quite get me to where I needed to be, in order to not kill myself to escape that prison, Ketamine succeeded. Please understand though, I continued in counseling. The two treatments coupled, have proven most effective. I needed both. I needed it all!
May 2, 2019, I entered the clinic for my first Ketamine treatment and I’ve been better ever since, making huge strides! I suffered nightmares 48 years of my life, nearly every day of my life. The nightmares ceased within the first three treatments! That in itself is a miracle!
We need God. We need Jesus. And we need the Spirit of Jesus to lead us into ALL truth. He wants to lead you too, but you need to ask. Then you need to trust. Then you need to listen.
And keep the faith. I promise you – You WILL see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. I’ve seen it happen more than once from the biggest needs, to the most practical life questions/needs, His promises are real.
“But I tell you the truth, it is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby) will not come to you; but if I go, I will send Him (the Holy Spirit) to you [to be in close fellowship with you].” John 16:7
“But when He, the Spirit of Truth, comes, He will guide you into all the truth [full and complete truth]. For He will not speak on His own initiative, but He will speak whatever He hears [from the Father—the message regarding the Son], and He will disclose to you what is to come [in the future].” John 16:13
I’ve had several people ask me questions about Ketamine treatments for PTSD, Anxiety & Depression.
🌀Did Ketamine work for you?
The short answer is, “Yes!”
I couldn’t stand living with the struggle day in and day out. The nightly nightmares (for over 40 years) made it even worse. I was at my wit’s end making little progress to feel better, and to change my life for the better. My mind was stuck and the Ketamine unstuck me. I often thought about killing myself, I often wished I could die. I didn’t see any other way out. I don’t have those thoughts anymore. In fact, it’s just the opposite! I haven’t had those thoughts for nearly two years.
🌀Did medications not work for you?
I tried over a dozen drugs in my lifetime and none of them worked.
🌀Do you have to keep going monthly?
No, you don’t.
🌀How many times did you go during the initial treatment?
There was a ‘loading phase’. I alternated between twice a week, and then once a week for 7 weeks. I went back whenever I felt stuck in my mind if I felt I wasn’t making progress with certain issues (trust for example), with counseling alone. I’ve gone back an average of 3 times a year for the past two years, and I’ve healed more and more each time (coupled with talk therapy is super helpful!).
🌀How is the Ketamine administered?
I tried all of them and found intravenous superior for my treatment.